Well, if you didn't already know I have begun a new chapter in this book called life. I have packed my things and moved south, where the warmth is. I have been given this great opportunity to live with my sister, go to school at Dixie State, and to work down in St George. I wasn't sure about this whole move. Quite frankly I was scared. I built some amazing relationships in Cedar, it was what I knew for the last 4 years. I am one who tells people I love change and am always accepting of it, but in reality I'm not all that psyched about it. But I have been blessed to have such great relationships with these people that they have supported this decision. They have been so supportive about it, shoot now they look forward to coming down.
I only moved down here about a week ago (a week agoooo) haha and let the record show that I have already gone on 3 dates. I'm just as suprised as you are about this! The first date made me pay for his dinner; the second, well we almost ended in the hospital; the third, well he threw me for a loop. This guy, his name is Phil, really opened my eyes. I'll tell you in a sec. Let me share something with you: I have struggled for the last few years with being active in the church and wanting to even be around people who were. I had some past experiences the kept me from wanting to even step into the church. I went only because I had to.
I also really experienced college, lets just leave it there. But I had a roommate that set such a great example. She basically dragged me to church meetings and activities. I have no idea how but I ended up there. I started to get back in the flow of things and finally decided that I needed to meet with my bishop. My roommate shared with me about her struggles and really opened up to me. We did the "if you go I'll go." I went first and couldn't control my emotions. I was one hot mess. But before I left I got a hug, and as most know I hate hugs. I left my bishop's office a changed person. I found myself so much more active in my callings. But once summer came around I knew I wasn't gonna be as strong as I had hoped. And I wasn't.
I found myself falling down that same path I worked so hard to get off. I knew that I really didn't want this lifestyle. I couldn't believe after how hard I had worked to do what was right one night and I almost threw it all away. The rest of summer I dwelt on that night. How could I have been so stupid, why did I even put myself in that position?
As soon as school started again I was back at church, I was doing what I could to bury the hatchet. I went in for an interview with my bishop, I thought I could put the rug over the hole and get a temple recommend so that I could attend the Ogden Temple Re-dedication. Once I arrived I knew I wasn't going to be able to attend. I walked in explained my situation. And instead of telling me that I messed up I was asked if I had truly repented of my mistake. I answered yes, and as soon as that was taken care of he informed me that he felt that I was able to attend the Re-dedication. Tears rolled down my face. Heck, it was like someone blew up hoover damn. This led to another set of questions, temple recommend questions. You think I was a hot mess before you should have seen me then. You'd be crying too if the last time you were in a temple was almost 10 years ago.. That night was a big night. I thanked the two people that helped me get there. Yes MelFlo hugs were given. I made a promise that night, I promised that I would renew that recommend every year and once I got endowed I would renew that one every time as well. I couldn't be happier seeing the temple every day. I don't go inside every day, but its amazing how far inside this area you can see the temple. I couldn't be happier seeing your eternal goals right every day.
So you probably want to know why Phil was so weird and what my past has to do with him. We had different plans when he arrived at my house. We were gonna go to Dixie rock.... When we got there he proceeded to tell me about him. I was informed that he was inactive, and everything about him. He told me that he is in the "live life" phase. He "gets around" and loves to have "an alcohol" every once in a while. After he told me about it ALL I looked at him and he looked at me and said I need to take you home. I have never had someone tell me that. I had thought I done something wrong. Haha, once we got to my gate he told me, "I'm not worth it." I asked what he was talking about. He says, "I haven't had a 'spiritual moment' for a long time, and I know when I'm being prompted. You're a special girl and no one should throw away something so special for someone like me. You're going to do great things I know it." He told me a few other things but This is what shocked me. Wow, its crazy how the spirit works like that! I gave him a hug and told him thank you for letting me in on his life and that I was thankful he shared so much with me in those 2 hours.
I walked to my bedroom and could only drop to my knees and thank my heavenly father. I wanted to thank him for all that I have and for the great lesson I learned tonight. I poured my heart out to him. Its amazing how easy it is to slip up. I thanked him for the people in my life and even the random strangers that teach me so much.
I'm human, I make mistakes. But that's what so awesome about the atonement. Its there for our use. How would you feel if you were to give someone a gift and know that they don't use it? Multiply that by a million, that's how Christ feels when we neglect his wonderful gift. I am so grateful to have the knowledge of this wonderful gospel. To be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I'm not sorry if I offend you, this is something I am proud to share. I am not the best missionary but I feel that sharing my stories and experiences is the least I could do in the "Every Member A Missionary" movement. haha. I am grateful for the experiences I have had. I wouldn't change the my past experiences for anything, I have become a better person because of it. Thanks for reading, hopefully you will still read my blog. :)
Keep it Real
-MelFlo
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