The Hills Are Alive

I can't help but think that its time to get a blog post back up. I have been slacking major bad. To my three readers, Mom, grandma, and that weird middle eastern fella that keeps leaving comments that not even google translate can help me on, I apologize for the absense. I have just binge watching south park, working, and playing ball here and there. There's not really an excuse haha.

To catch yall up on the happens of MelFlo:

January, I broke my nose when I was playing basketball. I managed to catch the plague at work, and had to finally use a call in. And I honestly can't remember what else happened but for some reason I just can't remember. Dang, getting old sucks sometimes ;) Feb, well February was a quiet month. I managed to break my tooth playing softball, I froze my chesticles off in a tournament in Mesquite and took 3 in Women's and Co-ed. Then the normal day to day stuff. Little drama here little stress and mental breakdown on the 14th. Ya know the usual.

Now that you're caught up, you can tell that I've been slacking on the long drives every Wednesday, like the good ol days. See let me tell you the significance of the long drive. Long drive was what connected myself and one of the guys I dated. It just became a weekly thing. And I managed to keep that tradition/habit going. I find that being out in the hills not surrounded by people, just so relaxing. To save ya all the details, going to drives out in the hills, is my "happy place."

So, a few weeks ago I drove all the way out to Panaca to just go drive out in the hills. Ok, I also drove out to see and be with family, but since they don't have Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesdays off they had to work. One morning I hopped into the Jeep, loaded Oda'Fin up and took off. We drove around for a few hours. Through snow, mud, and I kinda took a wrong turn and ended up on a cliff. Its OK! I managed to see it before I peed my pants, after realizing just how much of an "Oh Shit" drop it was. I got back in and just kept driving. It's so serene. The music, the views, and empty head-usually filled with thoughts. I am an over thinker. I lie in bed playing out what if situations because honestly, I like to keep thinking about what I would do in certain scenarios... but I also think thats part of my want to protect people I guess. I think everyone should have to take a ride out in the hills with me. No, no, not the mud, rain, or off roading with going straight up hills, or off golf courses.

I guess you would think of it as a sacred place. Just somewhere I know I can go and just let it go or just let it all sit in. I honestly don't know if anyone gets what I am trying to say here. One one of these days, I wish to be able to share it with someone who would love this as much as I do. 

I think, that people need to have a place they can go and let it all go, or just go to not think, I do realize that I gotta just get out and stop letting what people think really get to me.

I'll tell ya what, Its sad that I have to be proud when someone gets mad at me and I have to emphasize just how nice I was, compared to me normally just being a bitch haha. That's when I know its time for a jeep ride.

What I've Learned:

I take some pretty good selfies of my jeep and me.

I have never cried in my happy place

I know that I cannot go straight up the face of a hill with my jeep because I am indeed a chicken.

I now know, that during the summer, I have to check the weather app because when the top is off, it tends to rain when I take my top off ;)

Oda couldn't care less about going for a ride, he only cares when I let him out of put down the seat for him to sleep, but I do love having him there.

I realized that Oda has been there for some crappy times, to some good times. I know hes a just a dog, but when you spend a good chunk of your life alone, and you get a dog, they are the greatest thing.

Being alone is good, but not all the time.

Lastly, I miss my having my best friend and going out on rides with him every week.

It's time to start doing things that I need to do. Go back to being myself and not giving a damn. Going out and going to my Happy Place. I need to dust off that book I started 4 months ago and never finished. I need to also go change my laundry that I restarted in the washer cause it was left in the washer for 12 hours.....

If you came here from Instagram, sweet! If  not, peep my page @itsmelflo its got a few pics that may just explain why this "place" is a happy place. 

*lol every time I wrote "happy place" all I could think of was Happy Gilmore and his "happy place" and then the happy place he goes to when he busts the clown's nose at the mini golf course.