I have seen a good friend take their life. I've seen another make the decision to go on "end of life care" after battling cancer his whole life. I've pulled up on an accident where I normally keep driving, but when I got out I passed the car surrounded by several people and went to the truck, to see a man's face halfway pulled off. He and I had one hell of a conversation. I cried over breakups, I cried because of how much I felt alone. I've cried myself to sleep, I've eaten a whole quart of ice cream in one day and watched Grey's Anatomy. I cursed the man upstairs for all the heartache and trials thrown my way.
BUT I'VE ALSO SEEN THE GOOD
I've held my nephew and niece after they were born, I wasn't there for the delivery-not my shot of whiskey-
I've laughed until I've cried.
I went on a date that turned into several months of dating, that normally I wouldn't have dated.
I had a stranger ask to take my picture sitting on the edge of Angels Landing. Yes, you read that right, a stranger asked to take a pic of me sitting on the edge of Angels Landing.
I bought a New Jeep.
I tracked down sunrises and sunsets alone and some I shared with another.
I broke my new jeep.
I blew up a washer and it exploded and popped one of my tires, less than a month after getting.
I SHOT MY FIRST DEER and it was everything I had witnessed for years of guiding. I know its weird but damn, it sure did pump me up. After weeks of searching, and being with my sister and her husband.
I watched my sister graduate from college.
I went river rafting and It was worth the sun poisoning.
My best friend applied to med school and another got into law school.
2016 wasn't a total waste, time is never a waste as long as you're doing something. So what do I have planned for 2017, well nothing really. I hate planning things. Hold on, let me break this down for you, I DO NOT PLAN THINGS. I love to fly by the seat of my pants on things. But I think the only thing that I have planned is to go to CANADA for family trip. So hopefully I get my affairs in order and follow through on this one.
I hate new year resolutions, why only set goals for a year? Don't get me wrong but as soon as you accomplish that goal isn't it the idea to keep whatever that goal was going? 9 times out of 10 you just accomplish it then that's it. I hate setting goals because if you don't get it done, then you're all booty tickled and upset that you didn't do it. So there it goes again back on your list of "resolutions" for next year. The things I accomplished in 2016 weren't even my goals. They were things my parents told me to do and something that my best friend suggested. to get a new job and new vehicle. I did both. Now what? haha I really don't know. I'm not very good at this stuff. I am really good when people give me a list of things to do. I follow instructions very well. But you give me the freedom to do things on my own or plan things out, that is when it gets sketchy.
I guess since 2016 didn't go as good as I had hoped...I guess for 2017 it's time to get working on the bucket list.
~Cross everything off my bucket list, then write a new one!
Jump in the jeep and drive for 3 days, no destination
Kiss a Stranger
Go Sky Diving
Slow Dance in The Rain
See A Broadway Play
Visit 4 Corners
Smash A Pie In Someone's Face
Visit House From UP
Buy A Homeless Person A Meal
Ride Horse On Beach
Take A Photo Every Day
Sleep Under The Stars
Explore A Shipwreck
Visit Walk of Fame
Put A Secret In A Balloon & Let It Float Away
Go Paddle Boarding
Run a 5K w/o stopping
How ever long it takes, to not swear.... as much.
Stop letting the fear of rejection overshadow myself as an outgoing person.
Read "more" books.
Make more use of my down time.
Talk to someone completely out of my league, up or down.
Take a chance on someone who may not deserve it.
Wave to 5 people every day
Visit A State I've Been To
Sing and play instrument *In Front Of A Group Of People*
Give Someone A Hug Once A Day
Go ahead and laugh, but it's time for me to start doing the things I want to do. It's time for me to start saying YES to ME. 2017, is the year of YES.
I love this Mel and I love you!!! Here's looking towards Canada!!!
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